Counterpoint

When I see Chuck Bass my heart skips a beat, he is so conceited & offensive. I love it beyond explanation, I cant even put it into words. I love how he thinks that everyone thinks hes the hottest man on earth, I certainly think so. But I cant handle when he makes crude remarks & makes an annoyed face, my knees get weak. He is so irresistible, at least I think so. His face couldnt be more handsome than when hes angry or annoyed: his nose wrinkles up & he snarls then his eyes squint & he turns his head. It is the most amazing look I have ever seen. But its his arrogance that really gets my attention. He walks into the room like he owns it. He always has on expensive designer suits & looks down at everyone like they are 'beneath him' & that not worthy of his attention. He always has a look of annoyance. It is the most beautiful facial expression in my opinion, I think I love him. He thinks that he can get what ever he wants & hes right except for when it comes to women. Most women are turned off by his arrogance & attitude. But what is most impressive about Chuck is the fact that he in unfazed by people that reject him. His confidence allows him handle it so well.

Open book-John Lennon lyrics

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
But today is different, today is a new day.
I am going to do it different this time.
Everything that use to seem so right is now so wrong.
I guess I am wiser now, I have my eyes opened now.
I dont know why but suddenly my thoughts have changed & I am a new person.
I am sick of playing these games, I am too old for it.
I use to think it was fun but I dont want to deal with it anymore.
It all seems so childish.
I wish you would just come out & say exactly how you feel, just tell me.
What are you waiting for?
Your wasting time.
When its too late you will decide to speak up, that is so foolish.
Life is short & so are you.
Your not going to get any taller, its reality.
Quit making excuses & accept the fact that your not going to change.
I love you for who you are & i dont want you to change.
I love all of your flaws, you imperfections are what make you: YOU.
Yesterday was different, I am focused on today.
Stop living in the past & start living now.
Enjoy your self & stop being so delirious.

I remember

The most memorable event in Bianca's life would have to be her senior year in high school. She was elected President of her choir, she had a role in the musical "Footloose", she had the greatest friends, & everything else seemed to be going so well in her life.
She never thought she would win the title of President but she did & she was in shock. It was the greatest accomplishment. She would make speeches to represent the choir & she would assist the teacher & teach the choir. She then had to pick a song as her presidential song to teach the choir. She picked her favorite song that her grandfather would sing "What I did for love." She learned how to conduct & she had auditions for the solos in the song. This was the most amazing experience, one that she will never forget. She learned so much as the President, she became a stronger person & also a better person.
Footloose was another amazing experience. She never had a big role in a play before this was the 1st time she ever had a speaking role. She was so excited but nervous because she had several long lines to remember. But it was the best play she was ever apart of & she met the greatest people & she will never forget it.
She met her best friend Sophia in choir when she was President, it was Sophia's first year. Bianca knew that Sophia was shy so she could relate to her because Bianca use to be very shy too. Whenever they had solos Bianca would try to make sure that Sophia didnt have to go because she knew that she would feel uncomfortable. Bianca found herself looking out for Sophia as much as she could. They formed a strong bond & have been best friends ever since. But Bianca knows that this friendship unlike the rest will last forever. The friendship that they have is once in a lifetime.
Senior year was the best year of Bianca's life, it seemed like nothing could go wrong everything was in her favor.

The place I love

The place I love most is the beach in Brooklyn in the middle of summer. Its usually crowded & smells of Italian food. This is no ordinary beach this beach is filled with Italians it looks like an episode of the "Sopranos". Everyone sits around on their beach chairs eating spaghetti & meat balls. They all speak loudly; cursing & yelling to get others attention. The ocean sparkles as the waves crash against the rocks on to the sand. The sky is blue & beautiful, the clouds are big & fluffy. It is the perfect day. Then I walk over to pool where there are many people laughing & having a great time. I love this place so much it is so much fun, everyone seems so happy like they dont have a care in the world. The feeling of the sun as it touches my skin, the smell of the delicious food, the sound of people talking, the warm weather, I wonder why wouldn't anyone want to be here. Although I know that this place is not for everyone, but for me its the greatest place. As if this place couldn't get any better they have a dance floor & live music. Which happens to be my most favorite thing to do, sing & dance. Yes this is a beach. They have everything there. Its my most favorite place I wish I could go there everyday. As I walk on to the beach I would look around at everyone & they would always smile back at me & make me feel accepted. It is the most wonderful place, everyone is so wonderful & helpful. Its beautiful to look at & has beautiful people & beautiful things.

Eulogy

My name was Bianca & I lived a long & wonderful life. I died at the age of 75 but I accomplished many things in my lifetime & I dont regret anything. When I was 17 I graduated from high school at the top of my class. I was very popular in school, everyone knew my name & everyone wanted to be my friend. Everyone knew that I was destined to be a star, since I was 5 years old I always dreamed of being famous. Instead of attending college I decided to live my dream so I moved to California. I wanted to be do it all be a fashion designer, model, actress, singer, dancer & make my own line of products. I wanted to do it all. So I moved into this beautiful mansion in Hollywood & hoped to get discovered. I went to all the hottest night clubs & met so many celebrities & agents. They all noticed me right away & said that I was destined to be a star. After a few months of partying & getting acquainted with the industry I hired my own crew of people which consisted of hair stylists, managers, assistants, body guards etc. I needed all the help I could get. Instead of signing with an agency I did it all myself. I created my own agency and record label. I hired many people & created my own clothes. Luckily my family left me millions of dollars so that I could accomplish all this, otherwise none of this could be possible. After a year of preparation I finally received the credit that I deserved. Everyone started to notice me & I seemed to get more attention everyday. After just 5 months I was already among the A listers. I became so famous & I was only 18 years old. I dated all of the hottest actors but after several years of this type of lifestyle I grew tired. I couldnt stand the paparazzi watching my every move & printing false stories about my life in the tabloids. I was making millions of dollars but it didnt matter anymore, I wanted my old life back. I knew that was impossible, I finally established a name for myself & now I wanted to back out. I knew it was not the wise thing to do but I didnt care I left Hollywood & bought an island for myself in the Caribbean. I stayed there for 5 years to rest, it was the best 5 years of my life. But I realized I had not accomplished anything in that time so I decided to go back to the U.S.A. & run for President. I won, I dont know how but it was unanimous. I was 1st female president & the youngest person to ever win. After my 4 years in office I felt that I had accomplished everything that I ever dreamed of & that I could finally rest without feeling guilty, like I didnt do anything. That brings me to my death. After my time in office I returned to my island to rest. On my 75th birthday I decided to go swimming in the beautiful blue water but then I drowned I dont remember how but that was my life story, sadly it had to end like that but my life was a great one.

self assessment

I cant believe this is my last blog.
I must admit I didn't love blogging because I would always forget & then I would remember at the most inopportune time & then it would bother me because I would know I have to get it done.
But it is kind of said when ever something comes to an end.
So this is my final farewell to blogging.
It was fun & now its all over.
I do believe that as a result of all this blogging I think that I am more in tune with my 'inner self.'
I feel like this whole experience made me understand who I am.
I also think that I have improved with my writing, I am not even close to being a great writer but I have improved in length & getting rid of my writers block.
Therefore I believe that this whole experience had a completely positive affect on me, therefore I am kind of sad to end my blogging.
I think I did a great job capturing my true self I am silly, unique, interesting & my favorite word that Mike hates CUTESY!
That is who I am.
There is no denying it.
Revealing the 'shadow me' is hard because for the most part I am a bright person.
I love to smile & be happy that's just me.
Therefore I couldn't avoid exposing that happy side to me in my blogs.
Although I did reveal another side more dark with some of my spooky stories.
I am proud of some of my works.
For the most part I am a very insecure person but I am especially insecure about my writing.
I am a bit of a perfectionist therefore it is very hard for me to like any of my works.
But I do like some of my scary stories & love poems because I had to dig deep within my self to come up with them & that is the result & I am quite happy with how they came out.
I just hope everyone else enjoyed them I really appreciated all the comments & feedback.
This experience has been most pleasurable & I will miss it.

could this be love?

How do you know when your in love?
Do you feel a tightness in your stomach when your in HIS presence?
Do you feel a shortness of breath when HE comes over&says hello to you?
As he gently places his arms around you, does it cause your head to spin and then suddenly u forget where you are?
In the split of a second you feel like the earth has stopped moving&suddenly you enter another dimension finding yourself in heaven
Wishing that this moment could last forever, you grasp on tighter&tighter slowly taking HIM in.
as you are captured by the moment he whispers something in your ear and as he slowly pulls away from you a feeling comes over you
a feeling of sepearation overcomes your body as thoughts continue to rush through your mind
you felt so comfortable in his arms.. forgetting that we live in a cruel world..like nothing could harm you
thats when you know this love is real, its true love.
but sadly this love doesn't last forever it withers away due to seperation & seeing each other for who we truly were.
But whether or not this love was meant to be know that you will forever hold a place in my heart.

If only he knew

If only he knew my thoughts.
If only he knew the affect he has on me.
If only he knew that he is all I think about at night
Maybe then everything would make sense
Possibly then things would fall into place
Only then will love find its way.
I cannot hide the truth any longer

The good boy

She fell in love with the wrong guy, she knew he was a bad boy & she knew all the negative things that came along with dating Tony. But she didnt care & that is the most dangerous part. She was fully aware that she could never trust him & that he didnt care for her nearly as much as she cared for her. The worst part was that this wonderful boy named Dominic was madly in love with her & he had so many great qualities yet she didnt have any interest in him. She knew that she was better off with Dominic but she loved the feelings she had for Tony. When she was in Tony's presence she saw fireworks & that is what made her pick him over the Dominic. When she was with the Dominic she loved how he was a gentleman & how he had that twinkle in his eye but it wasnt enough, she longed for the feeling that spark that she had for Tony. She was well aware that Tony was bound to break her heart, he was a notorious player. Yet she didnt care, she thought she loved him but it was just lust. Dominic stood by her throughout it all & she was so thankful for that yet it was never enough she just needed to be with Tony. After a few months of dating Tony he decided to break up with her because he found someone else. He met a blonde in a bar & they were planning on moving to Paris together because she was a model & she wanted to pursue her career with Tony. She saw it all coming but not so soon so she wasnt that devastated. She thought to her self: 'was it all worth it? I saw this coming, maybe I thought I could change him. I could have been with Dominic this would have never happened if I were with him.' She thought about it for hours, then it occurred to her. She was done with the 'bad boy stage' she wants a real man that is loyal & has great qualities, Dominic. But it was too late Dominic found someone else. He waited for her long enough now it was time for him to stop chasing her & settle down. Now this was shocking to her, she never saw that coming.

John Lennon

What a breath of fresh air after the long & torturous Bob Dylan saga.
I dont think I will ever get over the abuse my ears had to put up with because of Bob Dylan.
Therefore Lennon is now my savior.
I knew that he couldnt be worse than Dlyan, anything was an improvement in my eyes.
But Lennon really impressed me, I wasnt expecting how amazing his songs are.
I enjoyed his music very much, he is so unique & really captivated me.
In my opinion not only is Lennon way more talented but he is better then Dylan in every aspect (musically).
John Lennon's songs are so catchy & beautiful.
His songs went from sad to up beat to weird to every where in between.
I absolutely loved his music.
& I really enjoyed the Beatles music.
I had no idea they sang half of those songs, I knew those songs very well but didnt know who sang them
They were so successful & their songs are amazing.
I really enjoyed Lennon.