A time in my life when I was not happy

I am a generally happy person, but life isn't always wonderful. I really do love my life but sometimes there are disappointments. A time that I can remember being unhappy involved someone that I love very much. I thought of this person as a role model & I was very close with this person. This person in my eyes was so great but then this person disappointed me. At first it was shocking because I never thought that this person could make a mistake. Then I thought about it & said we all make mistakes, were only human. I convinced myself that this person didn't mean to hurt me & that it was only an accident. But I was quite disappointed & tried to overlook the fact that I was hurt but couldn't. But then it happened again, I was even more crushed the second time because I convinced myself it wouldn't happen again & that it was an accident. I learned this person wasn't who I thought they were, I held them at a higher standard & thought they were something that they weren't. I was young at the time & naive. I didn't realize that looks can be deceiving, the person that I idolized had many flaws & was not a good role model at all. This person was the opposite of everything that I once thought. This person ended up being an angry person & everything that I saw was a facade. It was all a phony act. This person had many problems & it all came as a surprise to me because I believed what I saw on the exterior but emotionally this person was unstable & unhappy. It was very upsetting & I was upset with myself for not knowing, but the truth was that I was too young to know. I find that when I see this person rarely all the hurt & disappointment I had when I was a child comes back. I feel bad because it wasn't the persons fault it was mine. I was wrong about that person, I didn't know the truth. Truth is nobody is perfect & I am not mad at this person I feel bad for her. She had a hard life & that is why she is the way she is. No one should judge her, I was just devastated being so young, naive & disappointed to know that she wasn't who I thought she was.