meditation

I feel so carefree, unaware of everything else.
My eyes are closed & all I see is darkness.
Its so peaceful.
I want to do this everyday all day.
I try to relax my mind but I cant seem to block out all my thoughts.
I try but it just isn't possible.
Thoughts run to my mind & immediately take over those moments of relaxation.
I try to focus on my breathing so that I can get rid of all other thoughts, so that I can completely relax.
I find an inner peace & harmony.
It is a wonderful feeling.
I know it wont last long because my thoughts will find a way to take over.
I continue to do meditate for a few minutes.
Time feels as though it is slowing down, yet it feels like its flying by at the same time.
I feel so relaxed.
Just as I start to fall into a deep relaxation of mind & body my thoughts once again run to my head.
I start to tense up.
But I try to set my mind at ease.
I continue to keep my eyes closed but then I start to think about the weekend & what happened. I seem to relive all that happened & think about the upcoming week.
I am no longer focused on meditation & am no longer relaxed.
I start to get stressed thinking about all that happened & what will happen.
My feelings continue to change from happiness to nervousness to excitement to confusion.
More thoughts enter my mind.
I forget where I am & what I had set out to do:
RELAX
I realized that these thoughts are not allowing me to do that & I need to find a way to block them out so that I can meditate in total peace & harmony.
But it seems impossible.
As I lay back on my yoga mat with my eyes closed I hear several distracting noises.
I hear dogs barking in the distance, car doors slamming, & my mom talking on the phone.
I am completely fed up so I run to my i-pod & listen to soothing music.
But it just makes me depressed so I put on lil wayne.
But his music doesn't seem to fit my current mood.
Then I find a Britney Spears remix song that seemed to complete me.
I lay on my mat with the lights turns off & the sun providing lights by peaking threw my window shades.
This allows me to fully relax & it was the best five minutes of the day.
Although it was only five minutes it made me feel refreshed & more content.
Then I continued on with my glorious life of noise & thought about those five wonderful minutes of harmony.